its sucha funny thing how the people you care most about are actually the ones who hurt you the deepest.ive wondered all my life why every single thing they do matter so much to me.and yesterday the answers became so vivid.
its all because these people are the ones who mean so so much to me.and thats why the stuff that they do can upset me that much.i mean think for a minute.i don give a damn if some stranger on the street does the same things to me.i would just shrug it off and put it at the back of my mind.but when that particular person is you.its totally different.
and so ive decided that im not going to fall into this frustrating rage.and for once in my entire life.im gona ignore all the things that you do right before my eyes.bcos maybe ignorance is the best cure to forgetting you.and ive set a deadline for myself.
you are gona be non-existent by eighteenth october two thousand and four.you would not be the one i miss most.you would not be the one i think about most.you would be a mere passerby in my life.
okay.so much for all that.now some happy stufffff.but wait.theres nothing im exactly happy about.at least not that jump-with-joy things.
7 days to the last lesson in tjc.
10 days to the last day of sch. ) :
13 days to first A's exam.
47 days to liberty.
