maybe its something that i did in my damn past life to deserve all these shit im getting now.you walked into my life.messed it up real bad.left me shattered.and shrug it off nonchalantly.its funny how i even let you do that.he left me feeling the pits and totally devastated.i thought God sent you to me simply to tell me,"hey.life aint that bad."apparently im wrong,once again.it hurts when i have to put up a brave front and act as if it doesnt matter and i dont care.but it does.and every time the shit happens.my heart is whacked real bad.i always tell myself that i should keep a distance from you.but it just doesnt work out that way.and every time someone comes along and tells me,"i thought you were gonna avoid him?"i feel like a total loser.i cant even handle this the right way.i really dont wana think of you as the baddie in this whole situation.i rather think of you as a simple-minded person.sometimes i really wished you didnt possess that special ability to make me smile.
if it was some hideous thing that i did in my past life for me to deserve getting heartbroken real bad twice in 9 months.i think ive had enough.ive suffered enough to redeem my sins.i dont ask for a wonderfully perfect romance.all im gona ask for is to be left alone.im not letting anyone into my life right now.im truly traumatised.thanks ALOT.
i had a bad wkend.two huge blows in two days.and i suddenly feel sluggish.
but it rocks to have my old friends being there for me even though we no longer see each other every day.it rocks to have my new friends staying up VERY late into the nights listening to my load of rubbish and giving the greatest advice i can ask for.it rocks when i have ppl to stay up with me the whole entire night when i am feeling the pits and i dont feel like spending the night all alone.it rocks when someone pats me on my back and tells me,"dont worry.im rooting for you."it rocks when someone offers me chocos when im not feeling my best.it rocks when someone comes up to me and says,"is there something you wana talk to me about?you dont look okay eh."it rocks when seniors tell me,"dont worry mans.you are doing fine.really. : )"it rocks when seniors put down their tutorials and listen patiently to all my frustrations when i merely appear at their doors.
the catchline in my life is "if you feel things are so bad.they cant get any worse.they can only get better."
please let me believe in what i preach.
P.L.E.A.S.E.
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8:05 AM
me ai em rosanne//ennasor personal fiddles glares of the scorching sun.warmth of the oceanic waves.touch of the sand.smell of mud n field.odd-shaped rugby ball.pool dips.
