i have always thought that i was somebody who speaks her mind freely.someone who would gladly express her feelings to people around her, without any doubt. but apparently its all but an illusion.
i have never been able to say iloveyous to my parents. many a time, i was at the very brink of saying it.but it never happened somehow.i did not have that courage.and truly, im embarrassed and appalled with myself.
and right now, i have the urge to run home to them, hug them real tightly, and say my iloveyous.
my mom has been my pillar of support. i remember calling her at the wierdest times of the day just to cry my entire heart out. i remember rushing home from school just to spend time with my mom cos she is the only one who can make my bad day good again. i remember her cooking my fav soup just bcos i had cravings for it. i remember her making me feel like im a princess.i remember her calling me right before the releases of my exam results and telling me that wadever happens, she would be there for me. i remember her consoling me when i called and cried like a wasted person at src.i remember her panicking and crying when she saw me bleeding from the head from an accident.i remember her promising me her full support when i told her i finally found someone i really love.i remember her bringing me a blankie and my fav food during the exam period.i remember her buying all the nice food and storing them at home so that i could bring them back to hall.im nothing without her.
i would have been lost in life without my dad.he was the one who made decisions for me when i was in doubt and in dilemma.he was the one who ferried me everywhr i wanted to go, no matter how far the place was.he was the one who teased me about my silly crushes in school.he was the one who teased me about eating korean food.he was the one who gave me constructive advice on every single thing.he was the one who showed me the reality of society.he was the one who bothered springing surprises on vanny and i on xmas.he was the one who taught me swimming and squash.he was the one who encouraged me to be involved in sports.he was the one who was supportive of me playing touch rug.he was the one who would sit down in the living room and listen to me play on the piano.he was the one who was always patient with me.and im nothing without him.
im sucha pussy.putting everything in words.but unable to speak them.ugh. ) :
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1:15 AM
me ai em rosanne//ennasor personal fiddles glares of the scorching sun.warmth of the oceanic waves.touch of the sand.smell of mud n field.odd-shaped rugby ball.pool dips.
