thanks rucy, manda, ky, wen and pee for making my flashbox so lively!hehe.puts a smile on my face whenever i take a break from my books.and thanks for the compliments!!!!teeeehhheee. (: and dont worry rucy and wen!im not doing anything to make myself thinner!really!haha.and in fact i have to gain 3 kg within the next week (?!) because my dad has ordered me to do so.so im doing all i can to gain that kinda weight although i really think its atrocious for that short period of time.ive not resorted to bingeing but im definitely eating alot more (: truthfully i think im of an average size as compared to other girls on the streets.but the fact that i was fat my entire life made my weight loss seem overwhelming to my concerned family and my friends.hahaha!its a tad tiring that i have to report what i had for my meals whenever my parents ring me up.but their concern really warms my heart.and knowing that my friends are also concerned makes me feel all fuzzy-wuzzy inside.ive been assuring my parents that they have a very matured daughter (HAHA). but also, thank you my lovely friends! (:
for a very large part of my life, i have been attacked by words of insult about how i wasnt as skinny as some girls are.and frankly speaking, my friends who were there with me would know how much i was affected.and yes, i do agree that i was extremely immature to let such low people affect how much i love myself.but circumstances would compel someone to change to make her feel better about herself.but im not anorexic nor bulimic.you have my word really!haha.i just held a tiny wish in my heart that one day i would be of the same size as anyone of you.and i wouldnt turn sulky upon hearing those caustic words.and someday i would find my prince charming who would love me for who i am.and i did (:
when i got together with woo ram, i was chubby and i had flabs all over.a few weeks ago, he was looking at the past photos we took together and was pretty shocked by the change.(the fact that we hang out 24/7 made him overlook the changes.haha) and i asked him whether he realised at that time i was actually fat.he said,"no, i really thought you looked okay to me." so no, i didnt lose weight because of my bf.i lost all the flabs because i was pretty sick with the immature words i was hearing from all that people. and you guys know who you are. im not blaming y'all. i just hope if one day you should come across reading this and you feel the guilty conscience in you, pls dont do it to others.you dont know how much that hurts.dont make others' lives miserable by the misconception that its a hilarious joke.its not funny, really.and those words sting deeply.
anyways.im already in the midst of my exams.muggin is painful man.haha.i end on the 6th of DEC. SO GLOAT ALL OF YOU WHO END SO MUCH EARLIER!hahahahahaha! good luck for all your exams my friends (: hang in there.
yesterday was 25th nov, happy 11th month anniversary baby (: ive said it a million times, but still, i love you.
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me ai em rosanne//ennasor personal fiddles glares of the scorching sun.warmth of the oceanic waves.touch of the sand.smell of mud n field.odd-shaped rugby ball.pool dips.
